The You That Never Happened

all the sacrifices
you've made over these years
how do i even repay them?
nothing will ever be enough.

sometimes, i think about her,
the you that never happened,
the one who also had dreams,
the one i took without knowing.

the one who would have
gone out, earned her own money,
explored the world,
put her needs above others.

i feel a deep hurt
when i think too long about it.
what kind of love is this,
so brutal and difficult to understand.